Chapters of my life.

I think I never try and never done my best in my life.
Maybe for some things yarhs but for some not.
I feel like a useless person. That's what I really really felt so.

I don't wanna keep any promises anymore.
I don't wanna disappoint anyone anymore.

All I wish was to go out with every single one of my friend
and have memories in mind before we really drift real far apart.

I know I never been a good friend in some people heart
but I guess is time for me to change.
I know no one is perfect but I want myself to at least be
a friend that really stand by others.

I know I did it for some friends but not the rest.
Sometimes I feel real guilty , superb duper guilty ! ):

I miss every single one of my friend , Really !
I got to change , and I want to change for a better.

Looking back these few years , I knew I changed. And
these few days I did think of alot and think of some people.
I do think of alot of people , tons lot , might be you who
is reading this post now too. I mean it (:

There's too much things in my mind and I thought for very long.
Tears wanted to drop but hold on. Cus
I can't drop at the wrong place and at the wrong time.
Though sometimes I really cant control and I break down.

All I got to say is I hope Myself is changing to a better.
I need motivation with me :D 18th Dec , this friday is getting
result too. I'm afraid. Papers are done , no regrets.

P/s : Awaiting for a friend.