Chapters of my life.

Half way through my poly life and realize I really learnt a lot during this journey. Stepping
into poly life and getting into a course that I am not even interested but willing to set my
heart to study well. And I did average for my Year 1. I really miss my Y1S1 class. Is really
the best, the best I every had. Glad that a group of us still stay in contact and still meet up
once in awhile.  Some of them taught me alot, alot that it impact me.

Currently in my Year 2 and kind of struggling. Have been a burden to some of my classmate
but really thankful that they never failed to help me when I need them. But is really time for
me to start studying and not wait for UT period then I do my last minute study and start panicking. 

Motivation in my poly life is Cheer. Cheer is something that I never thought I will be in
because I feel that the girls should be small size. But no, Im coping well and really want
to do better. I do have disappointment with myself. Really disappointed and ... but I know
if I don't give up I will eventually reach there. 

Since young, I may be different from other kids and may not have or get what other kids
have but I always tell myself to be contented. I'm not perfect. I made mistake and is the
worst mistake that I ever made. I feel so bad, so bad that I cant accept it. But, I changed from
there. I'm so much happier right now because I am thankful with what I have and the
people around me. Sometimes I do feel why am I different with others, but I believe that
makes me who I am today. I may not be the smartest, the prettiest, the richest or the
strongest but at least I am happy. "Simplicity itself is a form of happiness." - Yes, is so true! 

Also, I learnt to be independent and more responsible even though I am the youngest among
my family. I started working part time work since sec 1. Giving out flyer with a pay of $5/hr.
At that time, is counted a good rate. Then I started to find other jobs and work whatever
work I managed to find. During my Sec 4, I started working Subway with my best friend
and working there was also one of the best time until things started to change. Well, During
my Sec 5, after O level break, I took up a office work and work 2 jobs at the same time.
Feeling tired everyday, but I managed to conquer all the tough time and grow stronger than
before. Life may not be easy for me, but tough time don't last, tough people too.

During this phase of life, I have people walking in and out of my life. I miss those that walk
out of my life but I believe they leave for a better reason and better people are coming in. Some
people didn't walk out of my life but we didn't have time to catch up with one another due to
our own busy schedule but I never forget anyone of them because they are once part of my life
and been through ups and downs with me. There are still equally important to me. Old is gold.

As we grow older, everyone schedule is very different. Time together and meeting one another
is not easy. Being understanding is something very very important. Had been giving a lot but I
feel that giving is a form of happiness. And one thing about giving, is that never expect for any
return. Because I always believe that "When you give, you will eventually be blessed."

Separated with someone that is important to me for the past 7-8 years. Though is not what we
want and I really thankful day for all the things he done for me. Is someone that no one can
compares with because he accept me for who I am and forgive me when I make mistakes.
We may not be together, but I wish you all the best in everything and your enlisting this Friday.

  

Family is something I hold very close to my heart. My parents have always been very supportive
with whatever I do and they let me venture what I want in life. They have never stop me from
doing what I want. They scold and nagged like how other parents too, but that's because they
care. They are why I want to work hard for, to give them a better life to enjoy.

Unknowingly, they are growing old. Their white hair are more than their black hair. Especially
for my dad, my mum too. Just that I always help her with dying her hair black. HA! I also think
that I have been a good youngest sister because I treat my sibling like I am the eldest. My second
sister is disable but she make me realize and appreciate life even more. She may not be able to
express what she want but I will always love her.

Also, 2014 is coming to an end and my 21st birthday is next month but still not sure if I will
be able to have a party in advance. But I really really hope to have. Still waiting for my
brother to check. In the past, my birthday will never fall during school days as we won't
have school during December but poly is really different. Also, A lot of things coming up
and really have to spend my money wisely too. I hope this year will end well, it definitely will.
Goodnight xx

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