What can I still do ? 就算了吧! 算了吧!
Past photo. Yes It dont look like me & I am indeed more skinny
and now I'm look round and fat. I'm eating alot alot :/
I have start to see things in different perspective already. I know
I have attitude but who doesn't have ? Please lo , everyone have
attitude alright. Dont worry I'm posting it in a good manner though
it sound that I'm very angry. I try to see things in a positive way
and end up everything is in a mess. From today I tell myself that
today is a brand new life. I got to know what I want and look for
it. I dont want to cry to sleep every night. I dont want to tell
anyone unless you read my blog. Becze I already have a habit to blog
everything out here and express my feeling at this space. Today is
really a terrible day except during afternoon when I was out with
Claudia. First I must really thanks Claudia for asking me out ,
luckily I have off! I enjoy-ed and feel relief after having so much
fun with you at St.James. Now will say why I have a terrible day ,
because in the early morning I h.. a c... w... s...... then went out
with Claudia was alright. Then meet Limus and went to Evon's house
there pass her thing and was also her mother birthday too. My mother
call me and ask what time I'm coming back and I say : "Soon after I
pass Evon thing , Why ? "And she hang my call. I was abit sad and I
call back and ask her why ? and again she hang my call. Then forget
it. Acc Evon to eat with her mother awhile and I think some problem
between me and Limus. Then when I in bus otw home alone , my sister
call and ask "Camera ley ?" I say with me now , why ? And she hang
the phone. What is the problem mans ? I feel so sad that I almost
cried in bus you know ? I realise and I think I'm a silly person , I
dont cried in front of anyone except some. Things happen I tried my
best to pretend nothing happen and solve it with peace but what is
in return is attitude ? I am a person that can be satisfied easily.
Someone told me maybe my expectation is too high , so I learn to
bring it lower. I must use action and not words. Sometimes I will
feel that I tried so hard but if nobody see the point of it then
what is the point of trying ? But I tell myself I cant because of
that and stop trying because I'm not living for them but myself. I'm
already 17th! I need to know how to think! I cannot always be so
stubborn/silly anymore. I cant always depend on someone , I can only
depend on myself. Eversince the beginning of Sec 4 life lidat , I
really dk want I really want. I have a habit that I know many people
dont like about. I find it hard to change unless ... I know I tend
to neglect the people that really loves and cares for me. I hate
myself for that tooo! Argh Idk why I got too much too say. You
people can think that I think too much , I feel that I am too. What
can cure me ? :) - Answer cannot be expose!
P/s : I lost a thing , make me think about the past! ): How ? Sad!
Gonna find it back ): ): ): ): ): ):
为什么我一定要等到失去了才来后悔 ?
I have attitude but who doesn't have ? Please lo , everyone have
attitude alright. Dont worry I'm posting it in a good manner though
it sound that I'm very angry. I try to see things in a positive way
and end up everything is in a mess. From today I tell myself that
today is a brand new life. I got to know what I want and look for
it. I dont want to cry to sleep every night. I dont want to tell
anyone unless you read my blog. Becze I already have a habit to blog
everything out here and express my feeling at this space. Today is
really a terrible day except during afternoon when I was out with
Claudia. First I must really thanks Claudia for asking me out ,
luckily I have off! I enjoy-ed and feel relief after having so much
fun with you at St.James. Now will say why I have a terrible day ,
because in the early morning I h.. a c... w... s...... then went out
with Claudia was alright. Then meet Limus and went to Evon's house
there pass her thing and was also her mother birthday too. My mother
call me and ask what time I'm coming back and I say : "Soon after I
pass Evon thing , Why ? "And she hang my call. I was abit sad and I
call back and ask her why ? and again she hang my call. Then forget
it. Acc Evon to eat with her mother awhile and I think some problem
between me and Limus. Then when I in bus otw home alone , my sister
call and ask "Camera ley ?" I say with me now , why ? And she hang
the phone. What is the problem mans ? I feel so sad that I almost
cried in bus you know ? I realise and I think I'm a silly person , I
dont cried in front of anyone except some. Things happen I tried my
best to pretend nothing happen and solve it with peace but what is
in return is attitude ? I am a person that can be satisfied easily.
Someone told me maybe my expectation is too high , so I learn to
bring it lower. I must use action and not words. Sometimes I will
feel that I tried so hard but if nobody see the point of it then
what is the point of trying ? But I tell myself I cant because of
that and stop trying because I'm not living for them but myself. I'm
already 17th! I need to know how to think! I cannot always be so
stubborn/silly anymore. I cant always depend on someone , I can only
depend on myself. Eversince the beginning of Sec 4 life lidat , I
really dk want I really want. I have a habit that I know many people
dont like about. I find it hard to change unless ... I know I tend
to neglect the people that really loves and cares for me. I hate
myself for that tooo! Argh Idk why I got too much too say. You
people can think that I think too much , I feel that I am too. What
can cure me ? :) - Answer cannot be expose!
P/s : I lost a thing , make me think about the past! ): How ? Sad!
Gonna find it back ): ): ): ): ): ):
为什么我一定要等到失去了才来后悔 ?
